I haven't blogged in awhile so I decided to bring everyone up to date. I started my radiation a week ago, and I will be finished by the end of this week. They took me into surgery to remove my port that was used for my Chemotherapy, and put a sleeve in my cervix in order to help with the radiation therapy. They are administering Brachytherapy radiation. Instead of going into detail, you can look this up if interested. Haha…. Its not your typical radiation therapy. The good news is that it targets directly where it is needed which is my cervix. Because a bit of cancer was found in my uterus the radiologist wanted to zap my cervix to kill, if any, microscopic cancer cells that could not be seen in the initial surgery. The days I go for radiation are not fun, but at least all my other days in between are good. The end of the finish line comes this Friday! There is a mix of emotions that come with the end of my therapy…I will say that I was warned by others who have gone through this journey that fears creep in either toward the end of therapy or when it's over. Once they are not actively fighting the cancer many survivors are left feeling helpless. I did not expect to feel this because I've really had a positive outlook on this battle I'm fighting, so I was surprised when the feelings crept in once I finished Chemotherapy. I had a couple of days following Chemotherapy where I felt like “Now What?”….. When your whole life revolves around fighting this for 7 or 8 months you feel helpless when you are not actively fighting it. It was comforting to know that this feeling is natural for us survivors, which is why I am mentioning it now. I prayed my way through it and God did take away the fears. It is possible I might feel a little Fear come back after I wrap up my last treatment of radiation Friday, but I'm praying Not. Now I know I have to trust God more than ever and put my faith in him. When all the doctor's work is done and I go back to life as usual, I will put trust in God to keep me strong and fight this fight for me. These are the times that tests your faith, but also makes your faith stronger, when you let go and trust in him. My prayer is that God will take the lead more than ever before in my life and take me where he wants me to go in this life. My hope is that my struggles will be a testament to others and a help to others in knowing God is always there, even in our hardest times. We can trust and lean on the word of God and know that he can make all things work for his good.