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New Battle, Same Jesus

 

I debated on whether I wanted to blog on my latest health journey for a few weeks now, but ultimately decided to do it. Of course, here I am right? If it will help someone else not feel alone in their battle with cancer, then it will be worth it. Also, if something I have learned on this journey can help someone else then even better. Not to mention my family and friends can stay updated along the way. 

Back in November of last year I found out that my ovarian cancer had returned. My CA125 cancer marker had escalated which was an indicator it was somewhere in my body. Devasted does not even come close to describe what I felt in that moment of finding out the news. We had adopted JD in January of last year and he needed his mama to be healthy. I knew in my heart that God would get me through this battle, but my mind was being attacked by Satan. For a few weeks it was a battle of the mind.  Thoughts of me leaving this earth came to mind and as I would rock JD to sleep at night, I would silently cry tears of fear and sadness. I could not bear the thought of leaving him on this earth without his mama.  At some point during those few weeks through prayer I made a decision to fight, not only the thoughts but the cancer. By the stripes of Jesus, I would be healed!  I had hands laid on me at church and healing was called on through the name of Jesus. In that moment I felt the power of God touch me and I knew without a doubt I would be healed from cancer either instantly, gradually or through other means. I didn’t know how, but I knew it would manifest in my body one way or the other. 

December 13, I had a laparoscopic surgery to biopsy the tumor in my abdomen. To the doctors surprise the tumor had disappeared. My oncologist at the time was shocked and had no explanation for it.! Praise Jesus! This was our Christmas Miracle! We had a wonderful Holiday for JD’s first Christmas. 

Fast forward 2019 rolls around and I go to have a colonoscopy at the recommendation of my oncologist and low and behold the cancer showed up in the colon. I knew God had touched me December 2nd at church and I knew that he removed the tumor in my abdomen, so I was  confused as to why this was happening. I threw myself back into healing scriptures as I did before, and I continued researching natural holistic cancer approaches. My current oncologist was not on board with any integrative therapy at all, so I knew I had to find another oncologist that lined up with my beliefs. Through lots of prayer and research I was led to Dr. Dudley at Tennessee oncology. He is a Gynelogic Oncologist and from what I had read about him I felt the holy spirit nudging me to go meet with him. After my first appointment I knew I had found my new doctor. He put me together a chemotherapy plan and was also open to me doing some holistic therapy. 

Before I committed to conventional chemotherapy, I wanted to see what I could accomplish holistically. I started doing some high dose Vitamin C, and B17 in town but ultimately decided to go to a holistic clinic in California. It had all the modalities I had studied and researched under one roof so me, my hubby and son packed up and headed to California. Dr. Dudley was supportive of my decision and I kept him informed of my holistic treatments there. We stayed for almost two months doing many holistic cancer treatments as I learned more and more about a more integrative approach to cancer. They also did a low dose chemo treatment there called IPT. On my first IPT treatment I received a drug called Avastin. One of the possible risks of this drug is perforating the colon. Well you guessed it, it perforated my colon, putting me in the hospital for a week. I had to go on TPN nutrition through an IV and could not eat or drink anything for two weeks. This was one of the hardest things I’ve experienced because your brain can’t comprehend not eating or drinking for two weeks even though you are getting nutrition through an IV….. Tell your stomach that! Haha! Wow it was tough! After I was stable, and my colon had healed I still had to continue the TPN but was allowed to do a liquid diet. This went on for another two weeks before deciding to return to Nashville. I felt that I wanted to be under the care of my oncologist if I was going to be dealing with this added difficulty of TPN and the state of my compromised colon. After returning home I began to introduce more solid foods into my diet and within a couple of days I was right back in the hospital. The colon was not perforated this time, but it was however very inflamed causing a lot of pain, so I had to be in the hospital for a week on antibiotics with no food. Since last November It seemed I would take two steps forward and then three steps back. The knock downs were getting exhausting and some days were harder than others, but each time God pulled me out of the dark and back into the light. What I have found is that in these times of struggle I have to dig deep into the word of God and literally saturate myself in it. After all it is healing to our flesh and our bones. In my heart I knew this to be true even though somedays my mind struggled. 

Three weeks ago, I started Chemotherapy treatments with Dr. Dudley.  Through the knowledge I gained from hours and hours of studying, reading books and my time in California I collaborated with Dr. Dudley to put a integrative plan together to couple with my chemo. I go to Intravenous Solutions in West Nashville twice a week for what’s called a Meyers Cocktail (vitamins and fluids), Glutathione and high dose vitamin C. I also order mistletoe extract from the cancer clinic in California and have my Mom inject me three times a week with this. Mistletoe is one of the most researched and proven natural cancer therapies around. It has been used in Europe for years with much success both alone and alongside Chemotherapy for many types of cancer. It’s amazing!! I will talk more specifically about all these therapies in future blogs to come. 

I’m excited to report God has shown me a light at the end of this tunnel. Even though this week I am losing my hair, I am still rejoicing. My CA125 cancer marker level has already dropped by more than half. Three weeks ago, it was over 1500 and today it is 488. Normal range is below 35 but I know I will get there soon. Dropping this drastically in this short of a period of time is amazing and proves to me God led me to my new oncologist and to these integrative therapies that will ultimately take me to cancer free status. On the days when I did not see the light, I had to focus on the light that I knew would come and put my faith in that. Today this light is shining bright and I can physically see the manifestation of the healing in my body taking place. 

Psalms 23:5 Thou prepares a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointed my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 

While in the midst of this health battle I remind myself that God is preparing me a table of health and wellness. I believe this with all my heart, and I know a table is being prepared even when on somedays I can’t see it. This is a new battle for me in this season but I still have the same Jesus inside me to fight the battle. If you are going through a health battle yourself, I encourage you to read every healing scripture in the bible over and over until it gets deep within your spirit. Your mind can always sway but God sees your heart and once those scriptures are engraved on your heart Satan can’t touch you. 

                                          Memarie 

 

Proverbs 4:20 

My child, pay attention to what I say. 

Listen carefully to my words. 

Don’t lose sight of them. 

Let them penetrate deep into your heart, 

For they bring life to those who find them, 

and healing to their whole body.

06/11/2019

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  • Sandra Robinson
    Sandra Robinson Winnsboro, LA
    Jun 11 2019 12:55 PM
    Thanks for sharing, Memorie! I have been praying for you and claiming healing for you. I will share your treatment plan with others that are also making some tough decisions. Love to you and family!

    Thanks for sharing, Memorie! I have been praying for you and claiming healing for you. I will share your treatment plan with others that are also making some tough decisions. Love to you and family!

  • Lisa Rybak
    Lisa Rybak Arrington
    Jun 11 2019 12:59 PM
    Beautiful Memarie. I am so sorry you are back on this journey, but I praise you in your faith. Thank you for being an inspiration. I pray for your health, healing and joy in this lifetime. Xoxo, Lisa

    Beautiful Memarie. I am so sorry you are back on this journey, but I praise you in your faith. Thank you for being an inspiration. I pray for your health, healing and joy in this lifetime.
    Xoxo,
    Lisa

  • Margo Brandon
    Margo Brandon Cornersville, Tn.
    Jun 11 2019 1:06 PM
    Memarie, Our prayers are with you during this trying time an continues prayers for complete healing of your body. Being a child of God he is walking with you an will continue to heal you physically an support you mentally. God bless you an sending Hugs & much love always. Margo & Joey

    Memarie,
    Our prayers are with you during this trying time an continues prayers for complete healing of your body. Being a child of God he is walking with you an will continue to heal you physically an support you mentally. God bless you an sending Hugs & much love always. Margo & Joey

  • Mary Jo Kelso
    Mary Jo Kelso Mt. Juliet, TN
    Jun 11 2019 1:26 PM
    I love this Memarie. You know you have our prayers, but I love hearing the reports of your heart. God does not just do surface work on us, He finds the roots and makes us healthy through and through. You are His, and He is doing a great work in you.

    I love this Memarie. You know you have our prayers, but I love hearing the reports of your heart. God does not just do surface work on us, He finds the roots and makes us healthy through and through. You are His, and He is doing a great work in you.

  • Earl Powers
    Earl Powers Winnsboro, La
    Jun 11 2019 1:34 PM
    We are praying for you

    We are praying for you

  • Penney Earl
    Penney Earl Oak Ridge, La
    Jun 11 2019 1:39 PM
    Memarie I am sure God will give you complete healing and do like keeping up with your progress I know you haven’t lived in LA for a long time but you are still part of us. Love and prayers for you and family.

    Memarie I am sure God will give you complete healing and do like keeping up with your progress I know you haven’t lived in LA for a long time but you are still part of us. Love and prayers for you and family.

  • Pam Bermond
    Pam Bermond Waveland MS
    Jun 11 2019 1:50 PM
    You are such an inspiration to me and many others who are fighting or have fought or are the caretakers of ones fighting not just cancer but any of life’s struggles!! We are praying daily for you. And if I was a betting gal I’d bet and win!I know God has a plan for you. He’s not near fished with you yet because you are definitely a testament of faith hope and trust in our Savior and growing his kingdom!!! We love you, Mem!?

    You are such an inspiration to me and many others who are fighting or have fought or are the caretakers of ones fighting not just cancer but any of life’s struggles!! We are praying daily for you. And if I was a betting gal I’d bet and win!I know God has a plan for you. He’s not near fished with you yet because you are definitely a testament of faith hope and trust in our Savior and growing his kingdom!!! We love you, Mem!?

  • Wanda Lebeaux Foust
    Wanda Lebeaux Foust West Monroe
    Jun 11 2019 2:34 PM
    I know and admire your faith and strength you know without a doubt what God can do...❤️?❤️Godly woman and child of God... you are covered. Love you always❤️

    I know and admire your faith and strength you know without a doubt what God can do...❤️?❤️Godly woman and child of God... you are covered.
    Love you always❤️

  • Toni Reader
    Toni Reader Greenbrier
    Jun 11 2019 2:36 PM
    I have been, and continue to pray for your complete healing, Memarie. You are a strong and powerful woman of God.

    I have been, and continue to pray for your complete healing, Memarie. You are a strong and powerful woman of God.

  • Candace Shoultz
    Candace Shoultz Murfreesboro, TN
    Jun 11 2019 2:55 PM
    Praying for this continued journey and believing and thanking God for the miracle that is! Our God is so good to perform HIS WORD!!! Amen!!!!! He’s not a man that He should lie!! Keep sending satan away! Our God is mighty!! Praying sweet sister!!! Our God is so good!

    Praying for this continued journey and believing and thanking God for the miracle that is! Our God is so good to perform HIS WORD!!! Amen!!!!! He’s not a man that He should lie!! Keep sending satan away! Our God is mighty!! Praying sweet sister!!! Our God is so good!

  • Ellen Emfinger
    Ellen Emfinger Archibald, La
    Jun 11 2019 4:24 PM
    Prayers for you and your family. Your faith will bring you through. Adding you to my church family prayer list.

    Prayers for you and your family. Your faith will bring you through. Adding you to my church family prayer list.

  • Cathy Jo Reed
    Cathy Jo Reed Mt. Juliet
    Jun 11 2019 6:50 PM
    ???????????????? So incredibly beautiful! Your faith is absolutely breathtaking!!!

    ????????????????
    So incredibly beautiful! Your faith is absolutely breathtaking!!!

  • Dina Pewitt
    Dina Pewitt Murfreesboro, TN
    Jun 11 2019 6:55 PM
    God, God, Give Memarie you peace and strength. Heal her body in the name of Jesus. Amen

    God,

    God,

    Give Memarie you peace and strength. Heal her body in the name of Jesus.

    Amen

  • Karmen Eubanks
    Karmen Eubanks Crossett, Arkansas
    Jun 11 2019 7:44 PM
    I love you little cuz ❤️❤️. Praying for you. I know God is in control and I have no dout you are in His hands... Give JD a big kiss and some neck sugar for me!!!

    I love you little cuz ❤️❤️. Praying for you. I know God is in control and I have no dout you are in His hands... Give JD a big kiss and some neck sugar for me!!!

  • Jackie
    Jackie Brentwood, TN
    Jun 11 2019 9:35 PM
    Your faith is inspiring, Memarie. Thank you for sharing.

    Your faith is inspiring, Memarie. Thank you for sharing.

  • Carl and.Vickie Williams
    Carl and.Vickie Williams Winnsboro,La.
    Jun 11 2019 10:34 PM
    Memarie we both admire your faith and strength we are praying for a healing of your body.are hearts.have been so happy to see your family grow and God blessing y'all with JD ...what a.joy and he is so blessed to have y'all....stay strong and know we are all praying lifting you up in our prayers for a healing and thank you for sharing your journey with us......We love you and your family❤?❤

    Memarie we both admire your faith and strength we are praying for a healing of your body.are hearts.have been so happy to see your family grow and God blessing y'all with JD ...what a.joy and he is so blessed to have y'all....stay strong and know we are all praying lifting you up in our prayers for a healing and thank you for sharing your journey with us......We love you and your family❤?❤

  • Suz murphy
    Suz murphy Mt. Juliet
    Jun 12 2019 9:53 AM
    Memarie, you are on your way to full recovery. No good thing will God withhold from those who walk up rightly. Thanking Him for His amazing healing touch on you. Your strength is an inspiration.

    Memarie, you are on your way to full recovery. No good thing will God withhold from those who walk up rightly. Thanking Him for His amazing healing touch on you. Your strength is an inspiration.

  • Kim Stanke
    Kim Stanke Franklin
    Jun 12 2019 10:05 AM
    Memarie, thank you so much for sharing. I read your blogs with tears, you are absolutely beautiful! Your faith and strength is inspiring. I have no doubt that God holds you in His hands and will heal your body letting you be a Mama ro your beautiful son. You and your family are in my prayers. With Love, Kim

    Memarie, thank you so much for sharing. I read your blogs with tears, you are absolutely beautiful! Your faith and strength is inspiring. I have no doubt that God holds you in His hands and will heal your body letting you be a Mama ro your beautiful son. You and your family are in my prayers. With Love, Kim

  • Amy Reid
    Amy Reid Greenbrier, TN
    Jun 12 2019 3:06 PM
    You are such a fighter Memarie!! I’m so thankful to know you and can’t wait to hear your victorious testimony!! Tell the devil...NOT today girl!! You’ve got this! Praying for quick healing and for God to get all the Glory. Love you girl!!

    You are such a fighter Memarie!! I’m so thankful to know you and can’t wait to hear your victorious testimony!! Tell the devil...NOT today girl!! You’ve got this! Praying for quick healing and for God to get all the Glory. Love you girl!!

  • Sally Knoth
    Sally Knoth California
    Jun 12 2019 11:47 PM
    Memarie I am so sorry you have gone through so much since I met you in California. I will be praying for complete healing for you!

    Memarie I am so sorry you have gone through so much since I met you in California. I will be praying for complete healing for you!

  • Shawn and Gayla
    Shawn and Gayla Greenbrier TN
    Jun 13 2019 1:06 AM
    It breaks my heart to see you go through this again! Gayla and I are praying earnestly for your complete healing. Y’all are such a beautiful family and a tremendous blessing to everyone! Your faith is amazing and such an inspiration to us all!!! If there is anything we can do for you, please let us know, even if you need us to watch JD for you sometime. You have a strong support group with all us “stoners” and we’re all agreeing with you that you are healed in the name of Jesus. He is Jehovah Rapha!!!!!

    It breaks my heart to see you go through this again! Gayla and I are praying earnestly for your complete healing. Y’all are such a beautiful family and a tremendous blessing to everyone! Your faith is amazing and such an inspiration to us all!!! If there is anything we can do for you, please let us know, even if you need us to watch JD for you sometime. You have a strong support group with all us “stoners” and we’re all agreeing with you that you are healed in the name of Jesus. He is Jehovah Rapha!!!!!

  • Holly
    Holly Nashville
    Jun 14 2019 11:26 PM
    God has big plans for you, sister.... your healing testimonies are already helping others & drawing them closer to Jesus!... When God heals & restores, He brings you out BETTER than you were before! Love you so much & standing with you on His promises!

    God has big plans for you, sister.... your healing testimonies are already helping others & drawing them closer to Jesus!... When God heals & restores, He brings you out BETTER than you were before! Love you so much & standing with you on His promises!

  • Jayne Wochomurka
    Jayne Wochomurka The Villages, FL
    Jun 25 2019 3:56 PM
    Memarie, I’m so grateful you wrote the blog. I am in awe of your faith and fight!! Your beautiful spirit and family will get you through. Thanks again for sharing, you’ve really inspired me!

    Memarie, I’m so grateful you wrote the blog. I am in awe of your faith and fight!! Your beautiful spirit and family will get you through. Thanks again for sharing, you’ve really inspired me!

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