I am now in the middle of my fourth cycle of treatments. I have one more treatment on Monday and this wraps the 4th cycle of six. So excited to say, I'm finally over the hump! Somewhere in the middle of this cycle I got to thinking about how I originally thought about the Chemotherapy itself. I worried about how it might injury my healthy cells, organs, etc…. Then about halfway through I began to look at it as a healing process I have to go through in order to allow God to eradicate the cancer cells. Now in coming over the mountain of this process, I know that my cancer markers are dropping and healing is taking place! My perspective on it now is looking at is as a sort of cleansing process that my body has to go through in order for God to prepare me for what is next in the journey of my life. A few years back I felt a stirring of the spirit of God like I had never felt before. It came through at time when I felt I had no one to turn to, but through God I was given the strength to get out of a difficult situation and I became stronger because of it. I learned that if I put all my faith in God, victory can be won! 2013 became one of the best years of my life. So many doors were open to me, as I prayed each day for God to lead me every step. 2014 rounded out as a year I will never forget for so many reasons. It was filled with the best times and the worst times but through it all God was always there by my side. What I learned in 2014 is that God never gives you anything he doesn't prepare you for. Which brings me back to my change in perspective on my Chemotherapy treatments. I know that when our bodies are put through stress it is manifested physically as well. Many of these stresses we put on ourselves, and they pile up and pile up over the years. Not to say that I gave my self cancer, because I do not believe that. There are so many factors that play into that, and I am not a Doctor, so I cant self diagnose. What I can do, is look at these treatments as a way for my body to cleanse itself back to ground zero. I feel I have been doing that emotionally and spiritually over the last few years, and now its time to cleanse my body of this cancer that has been growing without me even knowing. My cleansing emotionally and spiritually has come from forgiveness, faith, love, trust and discipline. Now my body is catching up, and its time to cleanse. Sounds weird, but for me it makes complete sense. Its a perspective that gives this treatment a purpose and when you have a purpose, everything else changes for the better. So Cleansing it is! Mid March is the end of the cleansing and boy will I be a happy camper when this cleanse is a wrap! ??